tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-64189399906730409262024-03-13T21:29:53.940+08:00Keenho's Journey~ Seeking for a SABBATH day's journey ~KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.comBlogger26125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-52598667788891649962013-12-31T22:00:00.000+08:002013-12-31T22:03:22.391+08:002013 in Review! - An Igniting Light at the End of the TunnelThe new journey begins in 2013 at Berlin's Bier Houz, Ipoh when the clock needles passed 23.00 of 2012.12.31. There we have a group of schoolmates celebrating the gala affair.<br />
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There it goes my first long training course at ITTC, Bangi on 8-12 April, where I got the chance to visit my KL relatives, and to know more colleagues around! Thanks to KTJ after that and for that I could explore many places in KL.<br />
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Next up, after my birthday on 17th April when I officially turned into 21 y-old, I've decided to go gym. Yeah it's gym! However, too bad I could only stay there for 6 months gym till year end. This is because of the good news I've received that I can still continue my degree in Wawasan Open University (WOU) on my own support. My current situation and qualification is the perfect minimum requirement WOU could offer me, but the intake must at least starts from next year. Well, that's fine.<br />
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Time is sure moving real fast and my company's Annual Dinner - Fright Night has finally come! On 5th Oct, I enjoyed the night with my comrades...<br />
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2013.12.03 marked my date as my successful 1st Anniversary of service with the bank!</div>
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Final chapter throughout the year, which falls on 28th Dec, a very big day for my partner, a marriage day for her, a wedding dinner for us!<br />
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...And so, this year is an igniting light at the end of the tunnel. Full of colourful events, full of hopes, full of new people, thus, making 2013 a most fulfilling year in my 21 years of living.<br />
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KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-41505989577806178362012-12-31T00:00:00.000+08:002013-06-16T00:53:31.113+08:00The Aftermath! Abridged Flashback of 2012Long ago, after the marking of fullstop in 2011, this blog've been dead since then. The author once has no intention to maintain this site anymore, not to mention that it's already difficult to maintain his life.<br />
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Going through all kinds of problem when carrying important task is really a horrible experience that eventually will fail you. Well, perhaps I don't know how to sort things out properly, but things that are so discouraging will pyschologically make you lose your concentration and yourself.<br />
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<i>First, driving lesson is a must before going anywhere!<br />As things progressed smoothly, </i><i>I decided to join Senheng Electrical as a salesman, </i><i>thinking that can sharpen my communication and updating skill, well, to earn a living too.</i><br />
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<i>2012.01.XX - Had alot of gathering with friends before, during and after CNY</i></div>
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<i><br />2012.02.10 - Officially owned my 'P' driving license. Yes I can drive now!</i></div>
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<i>2012.02.14 - Valentine's Day is cancelled, Mathematical Proof: 14-2-12=0</i></div>
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<i>2012.02.20 - Senheng Annual Dinner, one day trip to KL Sunway! SH8209, reported in!</i></div>
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<i><br />2012.03.07 - STPM 2011 result out, and I felt lost...sigh</i></div>
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<i>2012.03.30 - First time been to Genting Highland! Sneak into casino!</i></div>
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<i><br />2012.04.17 - My birthday, a very good gathering with friends!</i></div>
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<i style="font-style: italic;">2012.05.12 - Bought my dream phone, Sony Xperia</i><span style="line-height: 20px; text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: lucida grande, tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"><i>™</i></span></span><i> Play @MYR990.00</i></div>
<i>2012.05.28 - Bought my dream laptop, Acer TimelineX 4830TG @MYR2199.00</i><br />
<i><br />2012.06.XX - Nothing special...except the saddest fact of being unable to further study =(</i></div>
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<i>2012.06.30 - Last day working in T95, obtained my vest and staff ID card.</i></div>
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<i><br />2012.07.01 - First day working in T63 as a confirmed salesman.</i></div>
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<i>2012.07.28 - KL one day trip with friends, Times Square!</i></div>
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<i>2012.07.XX - Horrible working experience ever, although I was ready of how bad it had been told so.</i></div>
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<i>2012.08.XX - Couldn't achieve sales target, but satisfied as a newbie, however, still rose up my target, F*! C'mon, at least I was the top V-Care sales record among your seniors of that month! Can't you show some mercy???</i></div>
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<i><br />2012.10.XX - A pat</i><i>ient and silent month, awaiting for my house loan application's eligibility.</i><br />
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<i><br />2012.11.03 - A critical month, thankgod I was being recommended a PBB job by friend's uncle.</i></div>
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<i>2012.11.07 - Applied my house loan, like a boss! Awaiting for approval and then resignation.</i></div>
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<i>2012.11.09 - I think I mixed up the timeline, but I went for PBB vacancy interview after that...</i></div>
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Each and every time when I pen my thoughts on this electronic parchment, a tinge of sadness would normally envelope my heart. It screams sadly for the days that I've spent with all of you this time will soon come to an end like the sun setting, making for way for the night to reign supreme.</div>
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Departing has never been an easy pill to swallow for it is bitter like the bitter gourd. Somehow we must come to terms with this reality of life. Talk about life, it reminds me of the wonderful moments that we get to share with all of you the droplets of sweat and tears, pain, sorrow, agony, and not forgetting the jubilant, happiness and laughter.</div>
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Anyway, it's a biggest pleasure for standing by all of us here together through thick and thin. It's your attitude and aptitude of showing your gratefulness and invaluable services that touches hearts! This quality of yours is an asset many cannot claim to possess. These and many other experiences you have should be treasured for they will be the greatest tools you have in your hands. You have proven it yourself through this small demonstration and by all means prove it again when you step into the working world for they become more useful to you. Here, wishing all of you well in your future endeavour and have strong convictions to believe that you should thrive in your chosen vocation.</div>
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Last but not least, please have my thousands of apologise here if I have caused any inconveniences, misunderstandings, slowdowns, troubles and failures to anyone of you! I may have failed in doings, but my good intentions will never fade...<br />
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Well, we shall part from here like a baby being torn from the mother, like the day retreating for the darkness, like the moment the Titanic sank, like the last breath of man and like the last day you spend time as one here. It is pain and pain but the behind the pain we see each other grow to become a responsible and mature yound adults. Au revoir and take care!<br />
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~Goodbye~</div>
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KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-91544026585082330912011-11-01T01:00:00.000+08:002012-07-31T01:09:15.789+08:00Climax of the Journey; The Turning Point!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Physiological find-a-word has described me being; SAD, EPIC, LOVE</div>
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I realize that my 19 years of living is in the dark...sounds horrible and epic, huh?</div>
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Alright, this post can be the continuous to my <a href="http://keenho.blogspot.com/2010/12/worst-ending.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime;">http://keenho.blogspot.com/2010/12/worst-ending.html</span></a></div>
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Well yeah...this is the critical time, the very peak moment for me to walk through as ALL sort of PROBLEMS pay me a visit at once! <br />
First thing first, it's true that I always say, everything comes from a home. <br />
I guess this is how I've been brought-up to what I am now.<br />
Every time when I'm home, I don't feel peace, and the warmth of love.<br />
But I know I have to accept it without blaming anyone. <br />
Sometimes I wish back to be just a child who do not know what actually a problem is, but in my past more or less I did feel it somehow....hmmmm... <br />
Right now, knowing that I'm the root of the family...<br />
it really gimme a burden to hold.<br />
I wonder, if there's no root, will it fall?<br />
Two options now, either CARE or DON'T CARE. <br />
I guess everything will come to a conclusion after my final exam.<br />
Whatever it is, I just don't want Them to suffer anymore,<br />
thus LETTING GO should be just the best way, I guess... Such a waste still...</div>
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Next up, I feel really bad for spoiling MY bond all by my own hands. <br />
I've nothing to say about this except full of Regrets... <br />
But I still wanna say, "SORRY if I've hurt you." <br />
Whether you see this anot, or whether you'll approach me again anot, <br />
I still hope so. <br />
Gosh...somehow I feel like I've done so horribly all the way, <br />
but too stupid not sure what it is,<br />
and feel like now have been abandoned from the world, <br />
and even wanna hide myself away from the world.<br />
Meanwhile, STPM is just around the corner, but I'm totally not ready for It yet! <br />
If This is the final key to unlock my future goal, <br />
I MUST make good use of the remaining days,<br />
despite having to face such unsolvable obstacles, which is very demotivating! <br />
As usual like I've mentioned, I have no health problem except,<br />
my nervous system which is getting more serious due to stress, and INSOMNIA!<br />
Unstable state, I can't take it anymore, and I feel like I can collapse at anytime. A sudden-death time bomb, huh? <br />
Seriously, I do need support from YOU, at least for a moment :(<br />
How I wish to get out from home, from darkness, to have some trips and travels, a real fun of life, to have my genuine new life, but there's always MONEY that matters! Haiz...</div>
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After going through <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime;">all my past updates</span>, <br />
I find that I can't really put words into actions. <br />
Well said, but badly done! <br />
What a big talk I am after all, but can't apply it...such a failure...haha... </div>
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Well, whatever it is, I believe there's still a purpose for me to live on earth. <br />
I shall light up the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Will of Fire</span>,<br />
to make this turning point to have a better end point, <br />
for what I'm still Your GODson after all!<br />
Thank GOD I had two miracles this year, may I have another one please?<br />
HOPE? <br />
Is there really always a <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: yellow;">light</span> of hope in the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: blue;">darkness</span>?<br />
Or is everything actually nothing and I'm just making my life miserable?<br />
I've cried all my tears dry and now I only wanna cry happy tears.</div>
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If possible, I will not see it as a problem but a challenge!</div>
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~ If I Don't Ever Exist, Perhaps You Won't Prolong Your Suffers ~</div>
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A very sad ending eh...<br />
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<br /></div>KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-24919906347340308372011-10-08T03:01:00.000+08:002011-11-28T14:19:04.919+08:00NightmareStarts early in the morning at the school, where the sky is still sunless. School lesson's carried on as usual. The surroundings of everybody studying is as usual. Feel of the warmness where every single friend gather around, chat around, play around. Very enjoyable, very peaceful, very simple, very warm.<br />
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But just when I make a blink, the whole building turns into blackout all of a sudden. It is unusual dark, looks like a haunted building drawn in the manga style image. The darkness where the lights couldn't escape from, objects that lights couldn't reflect from, leaving the surrounding without even shadows to be seen.<br />
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My hand reaches my pocket automatically, and there's a torchlight inside. Light it up but it's too dim to shine a thousand candles bright. But I can't bring out my handphone to contact or at least for some lights, for there's school rules to obey. Everyone seems to be panic and worried. Yelling comes from the mouth, but crying comes from the bottom of the heart where no one can hear. Feel of coldness this time, reaching the freezing point of the heart. Yeah...it feels like a doom's day.<br />
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A sudden random word appears to me, "LOYALTY". What does it mean? When I open my eyes, it's still morning but this time it has the theme of the moonlit night, and give me a break, it's time for me to go to school! <br />
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~A natural blackout is when God turns off Its lights and goes to bed~<br />
I should have woken up when "September" ends...<br />
but I'm going to bed at this time...till one day...just wait...wait....<br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: white;"><br /></span>KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-76595337018682060482011-09-05T15:35:00.000+08:002021-09-23T03:19:22.086+08:00- No Title -This post isn't given a title as it shouldn't even exist. A piece of My Secret, huh? Well, I don't know... I guess this is where I have to let out some of my feelings, my heart's pressure and save it in the form of words here, as long as this thing lasts. It's so true that a man will be stressed for two things in life, Money or Lady. I still remember that I've once said naively during I was small, "I won't have a girl in future" and my Mum replied, "Aiya, now you say like that but you can't tell in future one" <br />
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Part1 (2005-2010)
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Geez.. It's indeed I really can't tell this kinda thing. Surprisingly I had my first feeling since I'm in Form1. It's my first sight I guess, I don't know and I don't care. I don't even know Her but I find Her looks familiar, feel like a nearby neighbour. Knew Her in Form 2 same tuition but different class. One day, don't know why the teacher announced that she likes a guy called Wilson, and I was like... When I start to ride a bicycle, I cycle around my housing area and found another field where people plays football. It was so joyful when I found out Her house is just around there. Since then, I spent time playing football there. Well, it's time to come to Form3 and we went through PMR together with others. Yeah, I got 5As and I went to Her house in the evening and ask about Hers. She got 5As too if I'm not mistaken as I really forgot about this. Then, that's a very brave action of me to ask for Her phone number. Man, first time asking girl's phone number and I felt awkward. Glad she gave Me and I went home happily =.=" But, wait a minute...016, it's Digi but my new number is Maxis! So, from here guess you should know why I've owned another number, 016. At the same time I do feel she's already having a boyfriend, but I don't dare to ask, not that I shy to ask..it's that I can't accept the truth. So, I just maintain this relationship, being chatmates already more than enough to Me. This went till the time we set for SPM. Yes, I learnt she already having boyfriend and I also knew, it'll be all over soon. So, our last meeting would be the tuition farewell party after getting the SPM results. That's it between Her and Me...
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Part2 (2010-2011)
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After SPM thingy, decided to enter Form6 and this time I have set up my mind to be neutral in relationship. I'm sure to keep this well but things slightly went out of the way. There's sensitive cases started in the library where I'm carrying my duty. Did 'she' wanna chase me? C'mon, 'she' was having a bf alright, what's wrong with her? Hm.. what can I do other than act accordingly? I don't care. And that's it for us too. Gosh, she acts cool to me now, sorry.<br />
Then not long enough there comes another one, and this time involved myself in. Anyway, I finally had my mind clear and I confirmed it's just a puppy love. Both of us ended this indirectly but we're still keeping our friendship and she already has her another one shortly which summed up to be a pretty good ending for us.
Well, these library thingy not mainly considered part of this alright.
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What I wanna start here is the moment that You started to join my class, Lss2 last year. I remember the first time I talk to You is by calling You 'lenglui' haha. And I'm so lucky to sit beside You after the sitting position arranging. Then I don't know why, during the ticket selling day, I used my handphone and automatically I searched for your name in 0.Facebook and added you as friend. Upon you approving me, I still remember the first thing I said to You on Facebook which is, "Ponteng scul go on9 la". Well, pretty funny eh..haha. Then, I even found your handphone number from your facebook info. Nice number, huh? Since then, I don't know why I keep on checking and stalking your profile like everyday. But I'm sure I'm still on my neutral state all the time throughout the lower six and so on, moreover I knew You're already in a relationship at that time. That's why I didn't really talk much to You. But once I got rumor about your breaking up nearly at the end of the year, I started to have caring feeling towards You, not that I wanna take advantage at that time but it just come naturally, I make it clear here! <br />
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Here it comes 2011, upper six life and everything was still neutral at the moment. Surprisingly, both of us manage to sit together again this time new arrangement. LOL. And until one day, sadly I forgot when and even who started first, we started to SMS each other. Hm...from friendly SMS wishing to SMS chatting. Till one day, I realized something's not really right, and I actually hinted this to J. since she's quite close to You. We even chat via Facebook walls. From there, LHT suddenly shocked me as if we have something something like that. Only that time, I started to realize that I also got slightly something towards You. Maybe You don't know this, and we continued like this throughout Muet exam as You need to improve your English. Things get pretty tensed up when I started to care about You more day by day, and I knew I might go out of my neutral state this time. We still were friends. But one day, because of your misunderstanding Facebook status post, I confessed of having a crush to You, man.. I wonder why I did that. You told me that your ex has some similarities to me like my name, and birthday. From there, I thought You might has just transposed your ex feeling to me, it's not a real feeling I think, but then I don't care.
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After that, we even go deeper until we end up becoming ambiguous as You said. Both of us worried about our second time too as well as our unknown feeling and future. As we were getting closer day by day, one day You've scared me saying that You wanna stop this unknown relationship and you wanna focus on study. That was my first time crying for You and emo for the whole week. Then I made a statement asking You to continue like that but have a limitation, and we came together again. I talk to You, think of You, dream of You, and I even address You in a closer way.
I bet You have your sweet times with me too, I bet that!
Still, sometimes we had some awkward situation. You know why it's awkward? It's because both of us still have worries that is repelling. And I always worry about You because I care of You. I jealous of You because I love You. I don't know I can actually affect you on study but I myself built up my will to study since after mid-term exam! I feel like a little nerd that time -o.o-<br />
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I try to commit more but abit sad that You didn't really commit much I guess. I'm happy that You fold some heart shapes thingy and gave me. I'm sure to keep it forever, yeah..total 3 of it. But, I somehow realized something's not right when You start to reduce your chatting length recently. I try to maintain this until your birthday which I might bring You something good. Outing failed sadly. After that when I wish You birthday, where's your reply? Your warm reply? Haiz.. Then the next day I gave You a big birthday present after school, You received it happily. But after my sweet talk, You stopped Me, making Me speechless but not knowing what is happening. The next day was the start of trial exam but what I knew is serious problem is happening and I decided to talk to You. Well, your answer is totally out of my expectation. You said you don't want this, don't want Me, reject Me. The sadest part was that You said everything You've given is just a totally misunderstanding. WHAT IS THIS ALL NO FEEL THINGY??? From that time, my phone's crystal case cracks and the sky rains, and that's the time I really cry. Cry and cry and cry..and now is already the second week I cry. I have absolutely no mood to prepare for the exam seriously. All I can feel is, sudden coldness that freeze my whole body, heavy eyes that filled up with tears drop, and the broken heart that once all lived full of You. Sudden constipation, short of breathe, insomnia, no appetite, light-weighed, worried heart, troubled mind, all come and say hello. Sometimes, there's a saying which is true, "It's better to let it broken than trying to pick up the broken pieces which will even hurt you more". Well, I did try to repair our relationship, but everytime You hurt Me. <br />
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Haiz... what's wrong with me? Have I did too much and causes our relationship imbalance until You wanna break up with me? Wait, not even a break up because I'm not sure if we actually had started our date, so it's just You wanna give up on me. Why?? I need a proper answer for this. And now You even address Me as "someone" which isn't even in the your friend range. It's now drop to acquaintance and will I drop to stranger range? Am I that bad? Can we start all over again? What are You thinking? Do You still remember about My Request? I won't mark any of my relationship a full stop with the swear of my heart. I'm here always worry about You, pray for You, wait for You, miss You, and Love You. <br />
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~ It will be impossible but if You happen to see this mirage piece of secret somehow, please give it a Title.
And do understand deeply about this author, Ng Keen Ho ~ to be continued in the future's <span style="background-color: white; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;"><b>déjà vu</b></span>....KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-87609892495749698702011-09-03T11:38:00.000+08:002011-09-03T12:24:22.380+08:00Blur case and Screwed upI feel troubled and when I recall what happened yesterday, it's all totally confused and messed up! Every plan held was not smooth and right. Isshh.. <br />
Not only the holiday schedule failed to be followed all the way, the recent group study was ruined too. Here's a story to tell, more or less the story is like this...<br />
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...was in X library, 2nd floor and went to ground floor with my friend TJ to ask a librarian in-charge...<br />
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Me : Er...Miss, is there no air-cond here?<br />
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Lib.A : Why?</div>
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Me : (immediate reply) 'cos I can feel the temperature isn't right.</div>
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Lib.B : (suddenly interrupt during playing her FB) 'dik, kat mana u duduk... (tingkat mana?)</div>
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Me : Ting...</div>
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TJ : Tingkat 2</div>
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Me : T-tingkat 2... tapi saya rasa mana-mana pun panas lah.</div>
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Lib.A : (speechless) ....</div>
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Lib.B : (gamuk) 'dik, u cakap macam tu u ingat seluruh librari ni tak panas ke? U ingat kami berdua duduk sini tak rasa apa-apa?? Kami cuma mau tanya tingkat mana...</div>
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Me : Tak...tak... saya hanya hairan u tanya macam tu... masalah air-cond ni ada kena-mengena dengan tempat duduk?</div>
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Lib.B : Kami pun tak tahu masalahnya. Kami nak tanya tempat duduk sebab kami perlu kontak sistem air-cond dalam tingkat berkenaan...</div>
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Tj and Me: ................ Ohh, okay...faham faham... takpe lah. Terima kasih. (ciao~) =.="</div>
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Man, I need a judge here! <br />
After that, the rest things pretty much messed up too throughout the day. Lesson learnt, I cannot act according to emotion.<br />
Anyway, I should have back to prepare for exam. <br />
I'm doomed, once again my revision is badly done this time. Till then!<br />
Today is a special day ^^KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-56018698200349634822011-08-29T07:50:00.041+08:002011-08-29T07:50:00.290+08:00Holiday's Schedule<div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><ul><li style="text-align: left;">Wake up in the morning.</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Morning bath and brush teeth.</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Drink something and study.</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Breakfast and study.</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Lunch time and take my time!</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Study and study.</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Tea time and exercise.</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Rest and bath.</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Dinner time and TV time.</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Study and study.</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Supper and brush teeth.</li>
<li style="text-align: left;">Call it a day and sleep.</li>
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Sounds niz eh?<br />
Ofcoz play time and sweet time as well as business time<br />
are included in between =P<br />
Hope this can last organised for 24/7 in this holiday.<br />
Miss ya to the max~<br />
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"Bangun pagi, gosok gigi,</div>Cuci muka, terus mandi,<br />
Pakai baju minum susu,<br />
Salam ayah dan ibu..."<br />
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KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-56071371061180353512011-07-29T19:20:00.015+08:002011-08-01T14:50:45.462+08:00Positive, Negative or Neutral?Eh~ It's been quite sometime and many things happened lately that I don't know how to start. How about start from Ipoh Starwalk? Nah, nothing to say about since it's just a simply 7km walk. However, I'm satisfied running 7km Ipoh International Run where I can actually kept running non-stop from the start to the finishing line within the time limit. It's funny and a little disappointment because I've no idea why I didn't have this stamina before that to finish in top 10 in Michaelian Run few months ago. Ups-n-downs with my stamina...zz<br />
By the way, I'm so thankful to my monitor for his ride that time and also present time. Thank you LHT! <br />
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Next, argghh...SMI Sports Day with full of disappointment, but no blaming here as I know I did my best, my class did the best, everyone did their best. "My Beloved Class, USS2!!! ~Peace~".<br />
I'm glad too that I can have a chance to take part in the Guys' 100m Run final eventhough I knew the outcome will be bad.<br />
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Today is indeed a big day, a day which officially marks a fullstop to my librarian service, after a year long. Should I be happy or sad? Happy that it's so much relieved to handover the burden? or sad as I'll be no longer to work with friends and to the school again? No! I'm even down and got "short-circuited" during the final farewell. Well, guess I should say it's all over and its none of my business anymore.<br />
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Friendship and relationship is also another problem lately. I don't mean to direct this to anyone, I just hope that you guys can differentiate these two things and act accordingly and rationally, including myself ofcourse. <br />
If things do not seem right, I'm sure to give up! <br />
Meanwhile, I think being busybody isn't a good thing to be practised and you're just adding salt into injuries (if there's any). <br />
Also, I hope I didn't overdo things all just by myself.<br />
Everything here makes my eyes feeling heavy, heart feels the dark everywhere at the moment.<br />
So, what should I be? <br />
Positive, Negative, or Neutral???<br />
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</span></span>KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-73337480926713477162011-06-03T00:36:00.004+08:002011-06-03T01:48:25.841+08:00~Days Past~ (Random)"Power? <br />
Am I looking for power?<br />
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Ever since, <br />
the first day I saw you...<br />
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I somehow knew,<br />
we could be friend...<br />
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I was never lonely,<br />
because you was there...<br />
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It felt like, <br />
those day would last forever...<br />
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We walked along, <br />
the same paths because...<br />
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We chose, <br />
Life and Death together...<br />
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I believed in you...always...<br />
because we shared so much..."<br />
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From:- <span style="color: #0b5394;">Suikoden II</span>KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-91152830177349905972011-05-31T14:23:00.000+08:002011-05-31T18:42:58.948+08:00Again......or I can say finally, <br />
my anxiety, grief and my sense of deadwood had burst into tears. This actually happened since I got a sad cum touching dream about my late Grandma 3 weeks back. Well, guess everyone would miss their late ones especially when they're having hard times in life. However, there's no time to be sad, for there's still a priority to maintain my mood and concentration on studies...or whatever's important now. Mid-term exam has ended with disappointment again. Sometimes, I even wonder if I've chosen myself a wrong path, and is there any turning back? Back then, I realized that my purpose in joining form6 is to score back my physics paper which I merely did during SPM, but after all these papers have haunted me down even in my dream. "I shouldn't take these papers or enter science stream!", regretting in my mind. Hm....<br />
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Meanwhile, I've no idea why I've this thought recently :- <br />
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"<b>Being accepted by others is harder than to accept someone</b>". <br />
Maybe I'm just kind enough to be friend with someone, and I'm patient enough to bear the problems they might have. <br />
But, how about what others think about me? I can still tell that there's in-and-out in my friend list and also people around me. These people can totally ignore you but when it comes to something important, they can be friendly again. So, what's wrong here? Is there any permanent friendship that can last forever? Nothing is permanent by the way and if that's so, I can just play my part to be nice to others and cherish the good times we had together. <br />
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It's true that honest communication is essential to maintain a true friendship or a relationship, and this means no backstabbing people, but I also believe that it isn't the right way to be too straight forward, aggressive, etc. Why don't you let it happens spontaneously, naturally? Sometimes, too much actions will cause negative reactions. There are still some people who pissed me off when they are so aggressive, too actable, too arrogant, too silly, and harmful to others. <br />
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Back to the topic, it makes sense if the amount of things increases, the number of problems also increases. When there's life, there's death. To all mankind and especially pet lovers out there, this is the fact that we must accept and face through. Another sad case which I've fish pet and I was happy when I thought it was pregnant but later I learnt that it's actually having symptom/deadly disease called dropsy. Same thing here, when there's happiness there's sadness. If I can make it, I would rather choose to be NEUTRAL!<br />
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Perhaps I've no wisdom and not matured enough to find the answer of my questions.KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-62043749191868583262011-04-22T13:22:00.000+08:002011-05-01T12:34:04.397+08:00April of 2011<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><br />
<div style="text-align: left;">April is a month, the month which is filled up with lots of events. First of April, is a big day for fools to be fooled by foolish fools and to fool other fools, yes that's April Fool! However, it turns out to be a scary month for MUET examination and also the upcoming mid-term examination in May.<br />
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Meanwhile, this time to me, keeping another pet already isn't something new and it's no more unusual when it happens to give birth and the offspring eventually...(something bad happens)<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">Here's one of those adorable missing pets that I would like to share as remembrance; </div></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-c5X5KrOk700/TbzinD28DkI/AAAAAAAAAKM/CMlfi0GUZPY/s1600/FotoFlexer_Photo4.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-c5X5KrOk700/TbzinD28DkI/AAAAAAAAAKM/CMlfi0GUZPY/s200/FotoFlexer_Photo4.jpg" width="199" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Farewell...</div><div style="text-align: center;">Easy come, easy go. We just can't help but we still have to let it go, so that we can move on...</div><br />
<div style="text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: left;">Back to MUET, everyone was tension but when it's <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">o</span>ver everyone breathed a sigh of relief. So yeah, over is over and no more mentioning it until the result day comes. Alright, what next? Yes!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">!</span> I would like to exclaim that it<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 15px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">'s</span> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">the end of MUET day and the start of my birthday!!! Well, generally I don't treat birthday as an important day and so I don't expect to receive gifts or anything, but surprisingly I received one this year again. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Let me show ya what is it here;</span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Naruto Konoha's designed Pocketwatch</td></tr>
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Sbsj7lkNMFo/TbBYCJKjMuI/AAAAAAAAAJ8/F1j2Crr9hKw/s1600/DSC00372.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="display: inline !important; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="150" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Sbsj7lkNMFo/TbBYCJKjMuI/AAAAAAAAAJ8/F1j2Crr9hKw/s200/DSC00372.JPG" width="200" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: left;">Pocketwatches that I'm currently having now</td></tr>
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-RJgSAqeBoLw/TbBelmRBXcI/AAAAAAAAAKI/bDu_cfdd_w8/s1600/DSC00377.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="150" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-RJgSAqeBoLw/TbBelmRBXcI/AAAAAAAAAKI/bDu_cfdd_w8/s200/DSC00377.JPG" width="200" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Just for fun. External one is my old pocketwatch</td></tr>
</tbody></table><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: purple; font-size: large;">Thanks, my Friends!!!!</span><br />
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<div style="text-align: left;">Back to the main topic, it's time to prepare for the approaching exams and this is no joke! I need to do something or else...(Nah, cut it off I'm not gonna mention it here) Gonna off for awhile...<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;"><b>Happy Holidays and ALL THE BEST EVERYBODY!!!</b></span></div> </div></div>KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-86057223617106045242011-03-08T17:08:00.000+08:002011-03-08T17:46:16.482+08:00Unutterable Mood<div style="text-align: left;">After the recent monthly test, yes I admit that I've bad mood or emo even though I don't sound like it. To add salt to injuries, some people are moody too and perhaps they are the one who affect me. <br />
"No, bad feeling, you come with no benefit, please stay away from me!"<br />
This bad feeling of mine is indescribable or I just don't know how to express it. Maybe exams like MUET is approaching? And STPM is getting closer day by day? Most importantly is the skill of describing things effectively which I can hardly do so. Arggghhh.....<br />
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Reminiscence keeps on taking place in my mind and that reminds me about many past events which I pine a lot. I long for the time I attend my BM class, and other tuition classes as well. There I was like having another family out there. At that time, I enjoyed writing essays and the way the teachers scream, having fun with others, and many bittersweet stuffs. I also enjoyed playing football with my gang last time and now I miss it so badly.<br />
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As time passes and we grow older, most people or I can say everything, has changed, hopefully not into an unrecognizable way, please. I'm tired of it, not love comes before friendship, and not a hi-and-bye relation from a long-bonded fellowship, or the 'ship' will eventually sink.<br />
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Loneliness? Yes, I do have if I minus my pets accompaniment. Does two is better than one? Perhaps... Jealousy and guilty can now strike me easily and this is unusual to me. I try to get my time occupied with playing games and computer stuffs (yes, I'm actually hunting for good games) but this is just a stopgap.<br />
Well, feed back that my blog's hard to understand however, me myself do not know what am I writing here either, eh.</div><br />
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(OMG: exceeded 200 words, LOL!) <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: 22px; line-height: 18px;">✍</span> </div><br />
Anyway, here's part of a sudden old song in my mind,<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">"Hey Jude, don't make it bad<br />
Take a sad song and make it better<br />
Remember to let her into your heart<br />
Then you can start to make it better...<br />
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And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain<br />
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders<br />
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool<br />
By making his world a little colder.<br />
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Hey Jude, don't let me down<br />
You have found her, now go and get her<br />
Remember to let her into your heart<br />
Then you can start to make it better..."</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br />
</span></span>KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-43708709030527670712011-02-22T12:16:00.000+08:002011-02-21T20:37:15.447+08:00A Little Answer to My Road<div style="text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: left;">With reference to my <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #7f6000;">Post 2</span> last year, having destinations in life is important so that you won't get lost in your 'road'.<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">Now, 1 year has passed since then, and I'm still living in action without passion. Yeah, it's a long nightmare already. </div></div>Though, future is an unpredictable thing and you can't actually confirm what you're gonna be later, but you can try to make your road <br />
harder cum straighter for a better and stable future. <br />
So why wasting time trying to figure out those unidentified goals?<br />
Be easy, man. Focus on your immediate goal! <br />
Whatever it is, now I only know one thing that I must fulfill, that's to recompense my parents' blood, sweat and tears and also for anyone who've contributed its time on me. Guess this is everyone's responsibility and I will stay in position, trying my very best (perhaps) for the time being without turning back or crying over a split milk. Yes, your goal is my goal! <br />
Today's STPM 2010 results day and the day in next year is my turn for that. C'mon, no more playing a fool and wasting time here.</div><br />
Sigh...<br />
I start to hate the school, the school system and the school life. <br />
I will now have a "don't care" attitude towards things that discomfort me. <br />
I will do as time passes. <br />
I don't wanna make my life miserable anymore! <br />
I don't care if there's people talking bad about me (like you're the best in the world), <br />
I just wanna be myself! <br />
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Sigh...I have unvoluntary movements, muscle spasm and shivering. <br />
Perhaps I have anxiety again.<br />
Oh dear, please practise <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">S</span>.<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">E</span>.<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime;">X</span>. for a healthy lifestyle;<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">S</span> - <u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">S</span></u>leep (At least 8 hours)<br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">E</span> - <u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">E</span></u>at (Balanced diet)<br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime;">X</span> - e<u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime;">X</span></u>ercise (Yeah I know it's lame to be 'x'...At least 3 times a week)<br />
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Phew~Hectic days...Alright, no more wasting time here. Till then...<br />
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~ Your goal is my goal, focus on your immediate goal ! ~KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-51499030798381589242011-01-02T01:22:00.000+08:002011-01-03T01:12:33.469+08:00Happy 1st Anniversary!!!<div style="text-align: center;">An anniversary? Yeah, 1 year has already passed since this blog was created. So, Happy 1st Birthday to my blog!<br />
Hehe...2010's cases are closed and now again, a new start begins.<br />
Hope everything's alright till the very end. Well, nothing much to blog actually...but wait, maybe I should highlight those ups-n-downs throughout the year;</div><br />
<ul><li>January - Owned my very 1st proper PC with broadband at home finally after 17 years of living thanks to Sis and Dad.</li>
<li>February - Found and worked as a part timer for F&N Beverages for 3 weeks with great pay thanks to my Friend and Dad.</li>
<li>March - Boring holidays with free time to catch up some popular animes and study on how to use the PC while waiting for Form6's offer letter.</li>
<li>April - Reached 18th and immediately went for IC renewal to open my very 1st bank's saving account. Wireless broadband sucks, terminated and applied for Streamyx line. </li>
<li>May - Had my very 1st part time's salary claimed then used for purchasing a new mobile phone and school reopens for Form6. During the orientation, met back lots of old pals and made new buddies elsewhere. Had chosen into Lss2 the 'great' pre-U class ever. </li>
<li>Jun - Had an Art-stream-changing minded but remained still in Science class eventually. Had chosen my coco-activities and applied for school librarian's membership. </li>
<li>July - Had a ''schooling + facebook-ing + sleeping'' lifestyle (boring)</li>
<li>August - After 09/10 BOSL's farewell party and librarian test, officially became a Marian Librarian and also its book management head (gosh, lots of things to do but still haven't done)</li>
<li>September - Stopped all tuitions except Maths (can't concentrate in class)</li>
<li>October - Final year exam reached with no revision done...sigh.</li>
<li>November - Finally sustained 100% school attendance for lower six days before a long holiday to come. Had an awesome class BBQ at classmate's house and crazy steamboat (they don't eat Chinese fondue but play hot pot!) with my schoolmates.</li>
<li>December - A bittersweet month in the family but had great outings with buddies.</li>
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▼ <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #e69138;">My favourite food</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"> </span>▼</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_YE8BKG5OIl4/TR4pS31qx7I/AAAAAAAAAHk/UxLhpYGY6q8/s1600/images.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_YE8BKG5OIl4/TR4pS31qx7I/AAAAAAAAAHk/UxLhpYGY6q8/s1600/images.jpg" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">▲</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22px; line-height: 18px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #e69138;">of the year!</span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><b>▲</b></span></div><span id="goog_407821835"></span><span id="goog_407821836"></span><br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">It doesn't matter where you go in life, what you do...it's how many people's smiles you've brought to.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Ohya, Happy New Year 2011 guys!!!</div>KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-67242680057093390432010-12-23T15:57:00.000+08:002013-03-31T17:10:54.419+08:00#End - The Law of A Worst Ending...As stated in my very first post, I hope for a fruitful year ahead. But it seems once again, a hope is just another hope against hope and a disappointment to me. Instead, these years continuously had 'grown' bitter fruits for me to taste and it can't even leave me alone for this last short month of the year. I've been haunted for a same conflict since I was a child and tolerance finally can't withhold the hatred of a broken relationship, reaching a bad ending soon. Thought time can dissolves everything especially hard times but unfortunately not for this time. Happiness won't last forever, but sadness stays in the rest of your life!<br />
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Apparently everything that I have doesn't mean I really can own'em to MY very last minute. A lot of things have left from me, not even leaving their shadows to me but only precious memories and the feeling of missing. With bad things happen continuously, I'm now down for real, not knowing what to do at the moment, while at the same time leaving all my homeworks and revisions untouched! <br />
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This is my first year in my history I didn't celebrate Winter Solstice Festival<br />
not even get to taste a single 'Tang Yuan' (Glutinous Rice Ball) for a reason<br />
...not really celebrating both New Years<br />
(since my late grandparents aren't around anymore last year)<br />
...not celebrating my birthday<br />
(as like most of the years)<br />
...and absolutely none of a single family event<br />
(since my Dad doesn't encourage that)<br />
...leaving me bored in the house while <br />
those family members' relation's getting further and further apart.<br />
The only unforgettable happy moments that I had is <br />
when the time with all my friends mostly in gatherings!</div>
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I wish I have the power to bond back the broken 'string' but again, a hope is just a hope against hope and couldn't win against Fate. <br />
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Please tell me the answer, is fate unchangeable? </div>
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Even at his most powerless, man's existence is never without meaning.</div>
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However if you're trying to go against fate, you're going against <br />
the Law of Nature?</div>
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And the outcome could be even worse...</div>
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Anyway, even if I don't enjoy my days I still hope that everyone out there does so...<br />
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<b>Happy Winter Solstice Festival</b>, <b>Merry Christmas</b> and <b>Happy New Year</b><br />
to everyone who is celebrating!</div>
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KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-80761668536700206972010-11-17T09:13:00.000+08:002010-12-20T15:49:35.789+08:00#10 - The Law of Looking For A ChangeA very hello to my blog and my fellow blog readers! Well, I actually don't feel like updating my blog very often. It's not that I don't have the time to do so, I just don't have the mood and have nothing to write about. But sometimes throwing every feeling here is a good idea too. By the way, I do enjoy reading others' blog as well^^ <br />
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A saying I've recently heard from others, "Changing is the only thing unchanged" (or something like that) clearly states that the world keeps changing and it's undeniably non-stop. So tell me, what's permanent? None at all. Guess I wish I could change myself too and turn over a new leaf, a new start, a new life, for a better but before the next upcoming new year as things will be too late to be changed in last minute. But how? Stubborn people like me always sticks to the same old story and can hardly change, eh. I have sleep problem again, I have study problem again and I have...haiz. Inappropriate sleeping habit, laziness and facebook addiction really can kill me.<br />
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Mankind always looks for evolution and NOT devolution or a constant! When I look at my surroundings, my friends and others, I seem like I'm just walking without effort here looking at their back hopelessly and I wonder, how far have you all been and how far can you all possibly reach before I can catch up with you all? Gosh, I sometimes feel like I'm still living behind the times. Is the world turning way too fast or I'm just moving too slow? Yeah, I know I'm not talented in most of the things and I'm tired of being the last one but I always do.<br />
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Since I'd chosen to remain in science stream, I've told myself that this time is my very last hard chance staying in my school and I gotta put my very best effort for this, unlike my past SPM papers which I'm honestly dissatisfied as I didn't try my best at all for that. But once again, I broke my promise and time's wasted till now. Looking at the syllabus that I'm taking now really makes me feel like throwing all those books. Sometimes I don't even know what am I studying and now I'm still feeling lost in my road. I don't know what I'm writing here as well. I've set-up my pillow and tried to picture out about my future, but it's just a vacuum in my mind. I don't have much interest on things, thus I've no idea what the aim of my life is and I can't shape it well.<br />
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I also feel disappointed to hear that some of my colleagues have given up, some have changed to art stream, some have moved out to college, while some have decided to quit Form6. Somehow this makes me feel like giving up too. I can't blame neither the class nor the teachers as I can say I'm lucky and glad to have a good class after all. LSS2 my current class, you rocks! However, although it's really relax in the class, I can feel the danger in academic for being too relax. Meanwhile, I have complaints from my neighbor colleagues claiming that they are having problems with their respective classes and teachers. Seriously, it ain't a very good idea to over-pressurize students and I'm sorry that I can't help you guys out. However, neither way is good too. Being too relax can leads to laziness, being too tensed may leads to craziness! <br />
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And again, I feel like I've been abandoned again, leaving me a bitter taste of being an extra in the world. Well, this is pretty much similar to what one of my friends feels, but I don't know what he's up to. But for me I've an old friend and could be partner in my current class initially but now he's not that close to me anymore. Okay, I don't wanna go any further about him but I wonder what's wrong with me. Yeah, I understand this feeling and it's sometimes really unbearable that I stopped typing this, switched off the computer and went onto the bed or out for a see-saw for a moment. This moody feeling just strike on me without unknown reason sometimes. Am I emo-ing? Guess I shouldn't think too much and let it happens spontaneously. <br />
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Today's already in the middle of November and will soon move on to December, a closing of year 2010. There're plenty things I wanna do. I want to travel badly, having a trip, visit or a camp will do. I want to have a taste in driving and finish my driving test but I still haven't start taking it for a reason. I wanna update myself with TVB dramas too, like others. But dreams act like dreams(it's not realistic) as I realize that this upcoming big holiday is the time to brush up my studies or else it will be too late to do so next year. If I've wasted this last golden time, I might not be able to catch up and I might give up. Currently have an urge to read literatures and I should have sometime for it. <br />
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Well said, but still I believe in the saying that let nature takes its own course, just gives it your best shot. I will let everything happens spontaneously and I won't go too far on one thing but I'll do what I supposed to do, that's all. There're secrets I can't tell and please, let the secret be a secret. Guess I'm not wrong as I believe everyone has its own secrets. Throughout the year, things happen up and down with bittersweet. Although I'm not sure what I can do, I'm still definitely hoping for a change, a better and more comfortable yet a simple life. But one thing I know I wanna change is the way I blog, doesn't it looks too wordy? Maybe short and simple with more graphics should be better... <br />
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~Take a look at yourself, and make a change!~KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-18792946772192555362010-10-10T11:55:00.000+08:002010-11-18T00:17:58.184+08:00#9 - The Law of The 35 Thingy In FacebookAim : To know more about You who I've tagged and to follow the rules of this 35 thingy<br />Theory : Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 35 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.<br />Procedure : Write 35 things you wanna share with. At the end, tag anyone you can think of, including the one who tagged you. If you have already wrote this note before, kindly tag me in it.<br /> <br />My Contents:<br />1. I have eyelashes of about 1 cm long!<br />2. Styling and combing my hair is a waste of time<br />3. I need more sleep! Always have insomnia...<br />4. My opinion, people should sleep EARLY AT NIGHT not day time...but I never do that successfully :(<br />5. I still feel that I'm underweight even though my BMI is 19.8 which is in the ideal weight category<br />6. I wanna grow taller too<br />7. I like trying new things but will never master it as skillful as others<br />8. I'm kinda lazy worm ~ <br />9. Never study for exam, study for your future...but I always only study when exam comes<br />10. Somehow, have lost interest and concentration in studies<br />11. I want back my spirit of Standard 6 when I happened to be a 'study type'<br />12. I don't talk much these few years for unknown reason...hmm<br />13. I'm always alone...but I know I have friends out there...Yo, guys!<br />14. I miss my late one(s) a lot =(<br />15. I love animals and don't murder insects^^<br />16. I rear dogs, fishes, hamsters, turtles, and cats in my house!<br />17. I love a simple rural life somehow rather than an urban life<br />18. I love my phone and I need a phone string for her<br />19. I appreciate things given<br />20. I cheated death twice! Thank God~<br />21. I happened to be a noob kid during my childhood<br />22. I eat to live, not live to eat<br />23. I always look at my phone and wait for something for unknown reason...<br />24. I wanna play all Suikoden game series so badly =(<br />25. If I hate a person, I don't talk a single word to that fellow...but now I'm very forgiving^^<br />26. I like ramen^^ <br />27. I like to run and jog...but sucks in sports<br />28. I'm a pure banana...and so don't speak with me Mandarin, Tamil, Japanese, etc. other than Cantonese, English and Malay...please<br />29. Because I study in SMI since primary...I'm too gonna get that silver spoon thing<br />30. I like white and green...and black as well, but used to like blue <br />31. I kinda like anime and is now chasing after Naruto's anime and manga weekly jump<br />32. I somehow don't know how to react in certain simple situation<br />34. I wonder who is actually reading this word by word @@<br />35. It's way too long that you probably don't realize my content of 33's missing =D<br /><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=152877868083349&comments&po=1¬if_t=note_comment"></a>KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-59963947150081436132010-09-10T16:57:00.000+08:002011-10-29T22:57:40.231+08:00#8 - The Law of NothingnessA word 'nothing' which simply indicates the absence of something, is a word I kinda like. It simply means peace to me. "...feels like nothing". Though it sounds bored, at least I'm free from something that bothers me. Imagine how free and relief it can be when you manage to say it out genuinely that you've NOTHING to do, NOTHING to worry about, etc. Free from burdensome and troublesome. The usage of 'nothing' helps alot when you don't feel like explaining on something that people ask. Answering, "Oh, it's nothing..." or "nothing in particular"...and it shall be the end of story.<br />
Perhaps I'm a kinda person who has nothing to say, don't wanna talk much or maybe I actually don't know how to talk la in any kind of conversation. <br />
With that, people around me can find me lonely and quiet. If you ask me something I answer something, that's it. Yeah I know it sounds real bored and not lively, but that's me. <br />
Meanwhile, I also don't like others to know my own problem. Even if you sound it out from your heart, it can only comfort you more or gives you more choices to make(if anyone gives you some better ideas), at the end the solution still has to be made out by yourself. It's like when you're having an illness and go for a doctor's help, they can only give you the right medicine, it's up to you to take the medicine and follow the therapy or not. No one can cure you if you don't wanna cure yourself.<br />
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If I'm given a choice to live, I would prefer the world in the state of emptiness. The world of freedom. Even in the world of materialistic, mankind are still having lots of problems among themselves. Nihilism also exists which argues that life is without objective meaning, purpose, or intrinsic value. In this way, peace can't be achieved even we have lots of modern entertainments due to our self-centredness and self-absorption which are ascendant. Eventually, it's found that everything was pointless, full of misery or bodings of misery with no escape other than the certain black nothingness of death. It seems 'self' is too much important to oneself that couldn't be let go, thus definitely will suffer in the circle of life with greediness, hatred/love, addiction. <br />
If there's a born, there'll be old and ill, then death. And it repeats as a circle. But remember, nothing is permanent. Even mountain can collapse, rocks can break, stones can decay, sand can flow away. So, people should really throw away the 'self' in order to achieve true peace.<br />
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If there's nothing, there's no something.<br />
Well still, it's just a random thought.<br />
However just like the mood of the title above, there will be nothing new to read here later on, till then...<br />
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[nothing to display]KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-12738233045213105192010-08-29T10:28:00.000+08:002010-11-18T00:18:49.188+08:00#7 - The Law of Outdated BeingA long time it has been, it seems, since I have stopped blogging. Yeah, it has been inactive and was allowed to switch into 'sleeping' mode for quite a long period. So now please wake up from sleep! The same thing goes to its blogger, who needs discipline as every time is defeated by his laziness and negative attitudes. I can say that so far I have done and possessed nothing useful at all throughout my Form 6 life this 3 months roughly. This has defined the meaning of sleeping mode, which means sleeping has no work done and nothing is gained. So, I guess my time has been wasted for nothing except the hardship of Form 6. I really need to wake up!<br /><br />Well, when it comes to hardship, I guess I should talk something of my story here. Aduh, Form6 oh Form6. Why are you so tough? I don't know what others thing about it, but as for me, it's like a difference between sky and ground compared to Form5. It's now the matter of well-time management, high-focus, and consistency but not the 'last minute' strategy that can be applied in Form5. Even if I understood what teachers are teaching, I still can hardly apply in solving questions. However, I still believe in the idiom of 'practise makes perfect'. Honestly, this August test, I failed with flying colours! Somebody please helps me and no more 'last minute' strategy!!!<br /><br />Ohya, let me put this filler in to make it longer. I would like to continue my story after my #4 - working life ends. It ended on 14 Feb and on 15 March I have received my first salary in the form of cheque. But unfortunately due to myKad's microchip unaccessiblity, it blocked me to open my first bank account ever for the salary transferring. When it's after my 18th birthday on 17th April, I could renew my IC. The process took about 1 month time and when I could take back my new IC, the school's already reopened. With that, I had spent 30% my salary for the school reopen stuff. Namely school attires, fees, books, etc and RM200 to my dad, RM400 left for me. I thought it's time to learn driving but I'm not sure I have time for this in Form6 and at the same time, I was very keen to upgrade my ciplak handphone. That's why till today I still haven't get my driving license yet. I'm so proud that others have gotten theirs, but even if I have gotten mine, from where to get a car for me to drive? But I love my new mobilephone now and I couldn't ask more for what I'm having(computer with internet) now thanks to my dad and sis.<br /><br />Now, I come to know that studying in Form6 is quite expensive, eh. Especially when you include all those special events and co-curriculum activities, there'r all about money. I'm so thankful to my dad's and sis's financial support even we are having family financial problem. I really have no idea of how to repay YOU. I have a point of working part-time in my mind but it turns as dream as I can hardly find free time for even my studies. To add salt to injury, I'm currently given the responsibility to manage books in my school library since I chose to join the librarian. What a pain when I have no experience to do all those stuff as a newbie. Why I'm the one chosen?<br /><br />So far, I can mainly feel tired and sleep in the evening and night. I even have neglected my daily exercise which I used to practise earlier. With that, I know my body gradually becomes weaker and weaker and so for my stamina. <br />Gosh...I feel like myself is having devolution instead of improving by times. I find my language is actually deteriorating and I'm lack of languages(especially Mandarin), lack of knowledges, lack of talents and also lack of self-confidence. How am I gonna live on with these? OR how am I gonna improve myself from these? Pain...<br /><br />Eh, about my love life? I don't dare to think about it even if I have feelings of it. As what Chi Hong said, JUST DO STAY POSITIVE. Having a crush on somebody who is not possible yours is really painful. Pain...<br />I should think for my own future or at least settle it down first instead of thinking the other 'half future' at the first place. <br /><br /><br /><br />"...There has to be the right thing to do,<br />when you'r hurt u learn to hate,<br />when u hurt someone, you'r resented,<br />and start to feel guilty as well...<br />however, understanding such pain enables u to be kind to others,<br />knowing pain helps us to grow up, to mature,<br />and to grow up means being able to think,<br />and make one's decisions on their own...<br />to know and reflect on pain, and come up with your own answer..."<br /><br />~by Pain(Nagato),Naruto.KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-77902868079580928442010-03-18T12:35:00.001+08:002011-10-29T23:06:49.830+08:00#6 - The Law of DisciplineAs usual, I keep on trying to practise something useful everyday. But honestly I've skipped those habitual activities for several days due to my laziness. I admit that I've no discipline to do anything, and even fail to start a new resolution for myself. Sigh, I know I really can hardly control myself even just to follow my timetable and finally end up playing in the whole day and staying up late at night. Although I understand it's a bad habit that people shouldn't follow, I just couldn't help myself. Is it because the devil of me?<br />
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Well, discipline is the instant willingness and obedience to all orders, respect for authority, self reliance and teamwork. The ability to do the right thing even when no one is watching or suffer the consequences of guilt which produces pain in our bodies, through pain comes discipline. Initially, we practise school discipline when we are in childhood. However, not everyone is well disciplined, instead they commit to the increasing disciplinary problems in school, included me. <br />
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Self discipline is very important yet no one can actually maintain it in 100%. I want THE POWER TO DISCIPLINE ONE'S OWN FEELINGS, DESIRES, ETC. which is called SELF DISCIPLINE, PLEASE! in order to beat the devil of me and unblock the intention to improve myself. Generally, self-discipline is the assertion of willpower over more base desires, and is usually understood to be a synonym of 'self control'. Self-discipline is to some extent a substitute for motivation, when one uses reason to determine a best course of action that opposes one's desires. Virtuous behavior is when one's motivations are aligned with one's reasoned aims: to do what you know is best and to do it genuinely gladly. Continent behavior, on the other hand, is when one does what one knows is best, but must do it by opposing one's motivations. Moving from continent to virtuous behavior requires training and some self discipline. <br />
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Well, let's see who can really maintain its own discipline...<br />
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~ The biggest enemy is your inner self ~ by kHKeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-13631725566789328602010-02-22T11:42:00.000+08:002010-02-23T00:31:09.516+08:00#5 - The Law of Spiritual Power.As we are living in a materialistic world, do you know that praying is important to everything? In fact, we cannot deny that success is 99% perspiration and only 1% inspiration. Whether human being like it or not, we need guidance from the Almigthy. Always be humble before the forces called GOD. Always seek for guidance not only from our parents, relatives, teachers, friends, etc. but GOD. Likewise, people might finds that others are not depentable at a certain time and they are so lonely to handle things alone, so GOD is always the best thing in the mind. Pray in your own way. Pray in whatever ways you believe in. Most important of all, PRAY! ASK FOR YOUR GUIDANCE SINCERELY. The meaning of sincerity is the words from the bottom of your heart. At the same time, the effectiveness depends in your sincerity of long term praying. The longer term you pray, the more power you deserve!<br /><br />As for Buddhism like mine, another spiritual power is the power of chanting of mantra. The most common mantra is The Great Compassion Mantra (Da Bei Zhou). Mantra is known as sacred word or syllable used as an object of concentration and embodying some aspect of spiritual power. It is believed that unlimited advantages could be gained to those diligent cum sincere chanters and the main point is that any reciting should be done by NO means of any positive returns. This is to prevent greediness that affects the sincerity. And also the same theory, the effectiveness depends in your sincerity of long term chanting. The longer term you recite, the more power you deserve! Anyway, it is up to your own convenience.<br /><br />Well, based on the long writing above, it is obvious that I'm gonna try to practise it and hopefully I do not give up on that boring chant this time and later on as what I did last time giving up due to laziness and boredom.<br /><br />~ to be updated in the later post ~KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-2298704033250007902010-02-13T08:30:00.000+08:002010-11-18T00:19:28.085+08:00#4 - The Law of Working LifeAs for my very first job, I was so nervous and noob with zero experience when I stepped-in the working place. I knew nothing of being an efficient merchandiser cum promoter. Even during the first day, I could punch my attendance card wrongly. How silly I am, I thought. But never mind, I understand that learning from mistake is a very basic thing yet important in life. Well, after hearing another briefing, I tried to accomplish my job as smooth as possible. I have learned my duties and responsibilities, which I have to ensure merchandising standards of my company's products in all display area, included transferring stock(which I consider being a labourer) from back room to selling area, at the same time ensuring the correct promotion and pricing of the products all the time. Phew...quite challenging, huh. Moreover as a promoter, I am required to conduct myself in well-mannered way. Logically being friendly and giving a smile to customer or even to other workers is strictly recommended.<br /><br />At the beginning, I felt absolutely bored and painfully tired in my leg part. Thanks to the low stock availability, I was so free that I could chit-chat with others and loitering all the way as if the market was mine. I could make many friends here, mainly Chinese and Malays, staffs & cashiers, supervisors, promoters, securities, cleaners, and even customers. However, unfortunately I have met some psycho-customers, a male with female dressing and other gay things. OMG, forget about it!!! Besides, so far all kinds of customers have been seen. Some are really troublesome idiots while there are also some polite-kinds. Well, what I can to is just be patient not to discredit myself. Last but not least, not to forget to thank my friends who are willing to accompany me during break time and visited me. YOU have energized my days!<br /><br />~ to be continued ~KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-54145826123224549622010-01-26T09:06:00.000+08:002010-11-18T00:19:43.602+08:00#3 - The Law of Merchandiser Vs PromoterAs everyone's busy now and some are 'rotting' at home, I don't want to waste any golden time too. Therefore, I have made up my mind to find a job in order to earn money for drivng lesson! Not to fill in my free time by doing such a thing because I rather spend my time to enjoy, not to work! Anyway, I have no choice but to work. Haiz...<br /><br />So, I have looked into many vacancies, and the choice was either work as a promoter, merchendiser or labourer. At first, Starbucks but they don't want part timer. Failed in the first attempt. Next, Pizza Hut but I don't like their requirement eventhough the walk-in interview was successful. I actually prefer working in phone shop but no one accept me, failed again as the result. Then, I found a part time job at Ipoh Parkson, as a promoter for Pierre Gardin, but painfully at the same time I got another job from F&N Beverage Co. thanks to my friend. What a painful choice I mean! So what's now? Promoter or merchandiser or labourer?<br /><br />Finally, I learnt that the F&N job got a higher pay, and I realized that my main purpose to work is to earn money. With that, I have chosen F&N job, working in Ipoh Parade Giant. I have started working since 22nd Jan and the contract lasts for 3 weeks only! Phew...now I'm considered as a promoter, merchandiser or even a labourer!<br /><br />So, no need to wish me good luck or whatever as I have enough 'luck' last year and this year. Just pray that my pity tired smelly feet have super-regeneration ability!<br /><br />Well, waiting for the day 14th Feb to come.KeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6418939990673040926.post-28434666049479080032010-01-06T09:44:00.000+08:002010-01-26T20:28:48.517+08:00#2 - The Law of Understanding The Purpose In LifeAs mankind's common sense, life's not just a matter of eating and sleeping. It's also not about getting rich and powerful. Life requires us to plan carefully of what we want to be and leading a meaningful life. Each and everyone of us sees life differently. We see life based on our upbringing and the type of family we come from. We see life according to the type of friends we mix with. If we are more exposed we see life from a more adventurous life. We are much more courageous. If we are timid and keep ourselves, we don't have confidence in ourselves.<br /><br />Above all, it depends on you and you alone to decide what you want in life. The most important things is you have a purpose in life rather than drifting without an aim in life. The choice is yours. It's you who's going to decide your own future NOT Tom, Dick, old Hanry, NOT your neighbour or your auntie, NOT your father or mother, NOT ANYONE ELSE BUT YOU. What you do today will determine what you'll become tomorrow!<br /><br /><br />~ Vision without action is merely a dream, action without vision just passes the time, however, vision with action can change your life ~ by someoneKeenHo Nghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14640251805809034847noreply@blogger.com0