Again...

...or I can say finally,
my anxiety, grief and my sense of deadwood had burst into tears. This actually happened since I got a sad cum touching dream about my late Grandma 3 weeks back. Well, guess everyone would miss their late ones especially when they're having hard times in life. However, there's no time to be sad, for there's still a priority to maintain my mood and concentration on studies...or whatever's important now. Mid-term exam has ended with disappointment again. Sometimes, I even wonder if I've chosen myself a wrong path, and is there any turning back? Back then, I realized that my purpose in joining form6 is to score back my physics paper which I merely did during SPM, but after all  these papers have haunted me down even in my dream. "I shouldn't take these papers or enter science stream!", regretting in my mind. Hm....

Meanwhile, I've no idea why I've this thought recently :-

"Being accepted by others is harder than to accept someone".
Maybe I'm just kind enough to be friend with someone, and I'm patient enough to bear the problems they might have.
But, how about what others think about me? I can still tell that there's in-and-out in my friend list and also people around me. These people can totally ignore you but when it comes to something important, they can be friendly again. So, what's wrong here? Is there any permanent friendship that can last forever? Nothing is permanent by the way and if that's so, I can just play my part to be nice to others and cherish the good times we had together.

It's true that honest communication is essential to maintain a true friendship or a relationship, and this means no backstabbing people, but I also believe that it isn't the right way to be too straight forward, aggressive, etc. Why don't you let it happens spontaneously, naturally? Sometimes, too much actions will cause negative reactions. There are still some people who pissed me off when they are so aggressive, too actable, too arrogant, too silly, and harmful to others.

Back to the topic,  it makes sense if the amount of things increases, the number of problems also increases. When there's life, there's death. To all mankind and especially pet lovers out there, this is the fact that we must accept and face through. Another sad case which I've fish pet and I was happy when I thought it was pregnant but later I learnt that it's actually having symptom/deadly disease called dropsy. Same thing here, when there's happiness there's sadness. If I can make it, I would rather choose to be NEUTRAL!

Perhaps I've no wisdom and not matured enough to find the answer of my questions.

April of 2011

April is a month, the month which is filled up with lots of events. First of April, is a big day for fools to be fooled by foolish fools and to fool other fools, yes that's April Fool! However, it turns out to be a scary month for MUET examination and also the upcoming mid-term examination in May.

Meanwhile, this time to me, keeping another pet already isn't something new and it's no more unusual when it happens to give birth and the offspring eventually...(something bad happens)

Here's one of those adorable missing pets that I would like to share as remembrance; 

Farewell...

Easy come, easy go. We just can't help but we still have to let it go, so that we can move on...

Back to MUET, everyone was tension but when it's over everyone breathed a sigh of relief. So yeah, over is over and no more mentioning it until the result day comes. Alright, what next? Yes!! I would like to exclaim that it's the end of MUET day and the start of my birthday!!! Well, generally I don't treat birthday as an important day and so I don't expect to receive gifts or anything, but surprisingly I received one this year again. Let me show ya what is it here;

Naruto Konoha's designed Pocketwatch

Pocketwatches that I'm currently having now

Just for fun. External one is my old pocketwatch

Thanks, my Friends!!!!

Back to the main topic, it's time to prepare for the approaching exams and this is no joke! I need to do something or else...(Nah, cut it off I'm not gonna mention it here) Gonna off for awhile...

Happy Holidays and ALL THE BEST EVERYBODY!!!

  

Unutterable Mood

After the recent monthly test, yes I admit that I've bad mood or emo even though I don't sound like it. To add salt to injuries, some people are moody too and perhaps they are the one who affect me.
"No, bad feeling, you come with no benefit, please stay away from me!"
This bad feeling of mine is indescribable or I just don't know how to express it. Maybe exams like MUET is approaching? And STPM is getting closer day by day? Most importantly is the skill of describing things effectively which I can hardly do so. Arggghhh.....

Reminiscence keeps on taking place in my mind and that reminds me about many past events which I pine a lot. I long for the time I attend my BM class, and other tuition classes as well. There I was like having another family out there. At that time, I enjoyed writing essays and the way the teachers scream, having fun with others, and many bittersweet stuffs. I also enjoyed playing football with my gang last time and now I miss it so badly.

As time passes and we grow older, most people or I can say everything, has changed, hopefully not into an unrecognizable way, please. I'm tired of it, not love comes before friendship, and not a hi-and-bye relation from a long-bonded fellowship, or the 'ship' will eventually sink.

Loneliness? Yes, I do have if I minus my pets accompaniment. Does two is better than one? Perhaps... Jealousy and guilty can now strike me easily and this is unusual to me. I try to get my time occupied with playing games and computer stuffs (yes, I'm actually hunting for good games) but this is just a stopgap.
Well, feed back that my blog's hard to understand however, me myself do not know what am I writing here either, eh.

(OMG: exceeded 200 words, LOL!) ✍ 

Anyway, here's part of a sudden old song in my mind,

"Hey Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better...

And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder.

Hey Jude, don't let me down
You have found her, now go and get her
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better..."