#End - The Law of A Worst Ending...

As stated in my very first post, I hope for a fruitful year ahead. But it seems once again, a hope is just another hope against hope and a disappointment to me. Instead, these years continuously had 'grown' bitter fruits for me to taste and it can't even leave me alone for this last short month of the year. I've been haunted for a same conflict since I was a child and tolerance finally can't withhold the hatred of a broken relationship, reaching a bad ending soon. Thought time can dissolves everything especially hard times but unfortunately not for this time. Happiness won't last forever, but sadness stays in the rest of your life!

Apparently everything that I have doesn't mean I really can own'em to MY very last minute. A lot of things have left from me, not even leaving their shadows to me but only precious memories and the feeling of missing. With bad things happen continuously, I'm now down for real, not knowing what to do at the moment, while at the same time leaving all my homeworks and revisions untouched!

This is my first year in my history I didn't celebrate Winter Solstice Festival
not even get to taste a single 'Tang Yuan' (Glutinous Rice Ball) for a reason
...not really celebrating both New Years
(since my late grandparents aren't around anymore last year)
...not celebrating my birthday
(as like most of the years)
...and absolutely none of a single family event
(since my Dad doesn't encourage that)
...leaving me bored in the house while
those family members' relation's getting further and further apart.
The only unforgettable happy moments that I had is
when the time with all my friends mostly in gatherings!

I wish I have the power to bond back the broken 'string' but again, a hope is just a hope against hope and couldn't win against Fate.

Please tell me the answer, is fate unchangeable?

Even at his most powerless, man's existence is never without meaning.

However if you're trying to go against fate, you're going against
the Law of Nature?

And the outcome could be even worse...

Anyway, even if I don't enjoy my days I still hope that everyone out there does so...

Happy Winter Solstice Festival, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year
 to everyone who is celebrating!