The Aftermath! Abridged Flashback of 2012

Long ago, after the marking of fullstop in 2011, this blog've been dead since then. The author once has no intention to maintain this site anymore, not to mention that it's already difficult to maintain his life.

Going through all kinds of problem when carrying important task is really a horrible experience that eventually will fail you. Well, perhaps I don't know how to sort things out properly, but things that are so discouraging will pyschologically make you lose your concentration and yourself.

So after my very final exam, there's only 2 weeks left before the new year.
With a long uncertain future ahead, plannings must be set up still.

First, driving lesson is a must before going anywhere!
As things progressed smoothly, I decided to join Senheng Electrical as a salesman, thinking that can sharpen my communication and updating skill, well, to earn a living too.

Here's the updates;
 

2012.01.01 - The first day being a salesman, there will be alot to learn!

2012.01.XX - Had alot of gathering with friends before, during and after CNY

2012.02.10 - Officially owned my 'P' driving license. Yes I can drive now!

2012.02.14 - Valentine's Day is cancelled, Mathematical Proof: 14-2-12=0

2012.02.20 - Senheng Annual Dinner, one day trip to KL Sunway! SH8209, reported in!

2012.03.07 - STPM 2011 result out, and I felt lost...sigh

2012.03.30 - First time been to Genting Highland! Sneak into casino!

2012.04.17 - My birthday, a very good gathering with friends!

2012.05.12 - Bought my dream phone, Sony Xperia™  Play @MYR990.00

2012.05.28 - Bought my dream laptop, Acer TimelineX 4830TG @MYR2199.00

2012.06.XX - Nothing special...except the saddest fact of being unable to further study =(

2012.06.30 - Last day working in T95, obtained my vest and staff ID card.

2012.07.01 - First day working in T63 as a confirmed salesman.

2012.07.28 - KL one day trip with friends, Times Square!

2012.07.XX - Horrible working experience ever, although I was ready of how bad it had been told so.

2012.08.XX - Unreasonably sales target set by TM, no teamwork, all coworkers LC shit!

2012.08.XX - Couldn't achieve sales target, but satisfied as a newbie, however, still rose up my target, F*! C'mon, at least I was the top V-Care sales record among your seniors of that month! Can't you show some mercy???

2012.09.XX - The downfall of me, wanted to resign but couldn't resign, due to family hardship.

2012.10.XX - A patient and silent month, awaiting for my house loan application's eligibility.

2012.11.03 - A critical month, thankgod I was being recommended a PBB job by friend's uncle.

2012.11.07 - Applied my house loan, like a boss! Awaiting for approval and then resignation.

2012.11.09 - I think I mixed up the timeline, but I went for PBB vacancy interview after that...

2012.11.13 - House loan approved! And interview was a successful. 

2012.11.15 - Never wanna see those LC faces again, tried to take all the leaves before resign.

2012.12.01 - Put in my immediate resignation as SH8209, and issue happened.

2012.12.03 - Officially joined PBB PSG as a CTC, PSGBNKH 53280 reported in!

2012.12.31 - Most issues settled, happily working hard in PBB. All colleagues are so helpful!

~The End of 2012~

Au Revoir ~THE END~

Each and every time when I pen my thoughts on this electronic parchment, a tinge of sadness would normally envelope my heart. It screams sadly for the days that I've spent with all of you this time will soon come to an end like the sun setting, making for way for the night to reign supreme.

 Departing has never been an easy pill to swallow for it is bitter like the bitter gourd. Somehow we must come to terms with this reality of life. Talk about life, it reminds me of the wonderful moments that we get to share with all of you the droplets of sweat and tears, pain, sorrow, agony, and not forgetting the jubilant, happiness and laughter.

 Anyway, it's a biggest pleasure for standing by all of us here together through thick and thin. It's your attitude and aptitude of showing your gratefulness and invaluable services that touches hearts! This quality of yours is an asset many cannot claim to possess. These and many other experiences you have should be treasured for they will be the greatest tools you have in your hands. You have proven it yourself through this small demonstration and by all means prove it again when you step into the working world for they become more useful to you. Here, wishing all of you well in your future endeavour and have strong convictions to believe that you should thrive in your chosen vocation.

 Last but not least,  please have my thousands of apologise here if I have caused any inconveniences, misunderstandings, slowdowns, troubles and failures to anyone of you! I may have failed in doings, but my good intentions will never fade...

 Well, we shall part from here like a baby being torn from the mother, like the day retreating for the darkness, like the moment the Titanic sank, like the last breath of man and like the last day you spend time as one here. It is pain and pain but the behind the pain we see each other grow to become a responsible and mature yound adults. Au revoir and take care!

( Source: Modified from a Teacher's Booklet )
~Goodbye~

Climax of the Journey; The Turning Point!

Physiological find-a-word has described me being; SAD, EPIC, LOVE

I realize that my 19 years of living is in the dark...sounds horrible and epic, huh?

Alright, this post can be the continuous to my http://keenho.blogspot.com/2010/12/worst-ending.html

Well yeah...this is the critical time, the very peak moment for me to walk through as ALL sort of PROBLEMS pay me a visit at once!
First thing first, it's true that I always say, everything comes from a home.
I guess this is how I've been brought-up to what I am now.
Every time when I'm home, I don't feel peace, and the warmth of love.
But I know I have to accept it without blaming anyone.
Sometimes I wish back to be just a child who do not know what actually a problem is, but in my past more or less I did feel it somehow....hmmmm...
Right now, knowing that I'm the root of the family...
it really gimme a burden to hold.
I wonder, if there's no root, will it fall?
Two options now, either CARE or DON'T CARE.
I guess everything will come to a conclusion after my final exam.
Whatever it is, I just don't want Them to suffer anymore,
thus LETTING GO should be just the best way, I guess... Such a waste still...

Next up, I feel really bad for spoiling MY bond all by my own hands.
I've nothing to say about this except full of Regrets...
But I still wanna say, "SORRY if I've hurt you."
Whether you see this anot, or whether you'll approach me again anot,
I still hope so.
Gosh...somehow I feel like I've done so horribly all the way,
but too stupid not sure what it is,
and feel like now have been abandoned from the world,
and even wanna hide myself away from the world.
Meanwhile, STPM is just around the corner, but I'm totally not ready for It yet!
If This is the final key to unlock my future goal,
I MUST make good use of the remaining days,
despite having to face such unsolvable obstacles, which is very demotivating!
As usual like I've mentioned, I have no health problem except,
my nervous system which is getting more serious due to stress, and INSOMNIA!
Unstable state, I can't take it anymore, and I feel like I can collapse at anytime. A sudden-death time bomb, huh?
Seriously, I do need support from YOU, at least for a moment :(
How I wish to get out from home, from darkness, to have some trips and travels, a real fun of life, to have my genuine new life, but there's always MONEY that matters! Haiz...

After going through all my past updates,
I find that I can't really put words into actions.
Well said, but badly done!
What a big talk I am after all, but can't apply it...such a failure...haha...

Well, whatever it is, I believe there's still a purpose for me to live on earth.
I shall light up the Will of Fire,
to make this turning point to have a better end point,
for what I'm still Your GODson after all!
Thank GOD I had two miracles this year, may I have another one please?
HOPE?
Is there really always a light of hope in the darkness?
Or is everything actually nothing and I'm just making my life miserable?
I've cried all my tears dry and now I only wanna cry happy tears.

If possible, I will not see it as a problem but a challenge!

~ If I Don't Ever Exist, Perhaps You Won't Prolong Your Suffers ~

The Pearl?
A very sad ending eh...
but He still have Someone to walk beside with...